crunch time

time is short today. my house, my rules. my stuff, my rules. my disability, my life. im tired of being erased, badgered, bullied and ignored. i deserve personhood and love and happiness. ive taken responsibility for my stuff. i am enough. time for others to step up. its not temporary, static or certain. things change. …

day 5

I’m at the library. Surprise. Someone just barged into my bubble and started yelling about their PTSD. Surprise. I turned up the music on my headphones. Went to the printer with 20 cents for a 20 cent charge and got back a dollar five 😀 Feeling less nauseous, so that’s a plus. Craving some coziness. …

Thread

This is supposed to be a time of healing. Of being heard. Of treatment that was needed years ago and despite the piles of paper, policy and procedure, has yet to start. Scale of 1-10, where 1 is the worst, I’m stuck at a 4. I want to scream and throw things. I’m nowhere, falling …

august

Falling apart, here…still in survival mode. I feel like I don’t fit anywhere. All the helpers have vanished, I am invisible and alone. — Watched movies: The Hate U Give, Little Women, Whale Rider, Soul, X-Men. Had a vegan pizza today – it was pretty good. Found a hat, to hide from people with. I …

survival

I am really interested in getting out of survival mode. My friend says I have the worst luck they’ve ever seen. My sister supplies the chocolate bars, ice cream and wheels to get to doctor’s appointments — when my wheels are falling off. I’ve decided I like ice capps with oat milk – and black …

tcihwm (the ugly version)

stupid stuff people say: why do you have crutches, you should be at home, not at work? me: that is the most messed up thing i’ve ever heard. congratulations on proving how harmful, untrue stereotypes exist #$%&*#$%$#&*! stupid stuff people say: do these ten things all by yourself, then call us back and maybe we …

better, please

it’s not a good day. i’m feeling hurt on so many levels. and all i want to eat is peanut butter toast, because the thought of doing more, or eating anything else makes me nauseous. thrift store had some good vibes, but the fix was a temporary one. signing off and hoping for better days …

honorable mentions

went to the thriftstore and found some gems – a 50$ handcrafted silver bookmark in the shape of a fiddle, and an antique musical/singing toilet paper holder enjoying some good naps and snacks got some new shoes that’s all for now! thanks for visiting 🙂 –Sam

5 mar

highlight of the week was being introduced to a dog called Pete! 😀 lowlight of the week was falling down savvy sundays and welcoming libraries snacks! future plans tba (maybe some shoes, yoga, tunes and leadership opportunities) notes intentional and cozy self-care zone journals and rest mindmaps evolving processes hair on fire

home kitchen

I’ve been thinking about names and creative solutions. — Forum, Fiddle Party, Gathering, Intentional and Cozy, Big House // Little House // my house Continuums, Life, choices, Death, Science, Changing times, continuing projects, learning, being present, boundaries, mental health, wellness, self care, food systems, ecosystems. I loved everything about Christmas Dinner December 2022. Especially the …