Category Archives: Play

Reeling

Sometimes they are so vivid! Choices become clearer and concepts are given life. The soundtrack can be pretty awesome too! #allthemoviesinmyhead

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As is.

The imagery that springs to my mind with this quote, again from Bones, is wonderful:

It’s like describing the moon to a mole.

Understand the facts.

Draw your own conclusions.

Be kind. Explore. Forgive.

Sometimes your reality is not shared, and that’s ok.

Sometimes this one is not infinite or absolute.

It’s not good or bad, it just is.

Quiet brilliance

I’ve finished reading my book, and found my feet again. And my hair is driving me nuts! 😛 Anyways… I awoke on Saturday having no idea what time it was and later discovered I had by conservative estimate slept 14 hours straight. I felt amazing. Saturday was amazing. I felt so alive and so loved. Also, Twink got a haircut and while Mom is probably still laughing, I think he looks very dapper 🙂

Sunday, I bought a tiger onesie (Rawwr!) for the supposed Halloween celebration at work  where everyone who has one will be wearing one!

Today was just about average. Except I’m really happy I still have some energy and time to blog and drink tea and just generally revel in everything I’ve accomplished until now, today, and so far this year, which everyone keeps reminding me is almost over.

I’m glad to have JHTK on board and helping me stay on top of all things BB-related with humour and vision. The future looks bright!

–Sam

We make our lives out of chaos and hope. And love.              –Angela Montenegro, Bones

 

healing

Time has been doing strange things lately, and today, too. But I’m feeling more centred than I have felt for a while and following my own healing process which has been good all around.

For me, play and sleep make everything so much better. I sleep like the dead so I can rejoin the land of the living. And the last 48 hours have been bliss.

Currently waiting on laundry and planning my next move.

Life is good 🙂

–Sam

Story book conversations

So much has happened in the last 2 weeks! And so much is going through my mind. Today has been satisfying so far. I got my recycling done, whew! Still to do are laundry and groceries/dinner.

Logistics is currently a worm eating my brain personally and professionally.

I actually think I might go journal instead, because my head is starting to hurt and hyper-analysing things while trying to type is not helping.

It’s been less than 24hrs and already, I miss having genuine, interesting conversations with genuine, interesting people. The week shows great promise, however!

–Sam

 

 

Boats

I’ve noticed boats have recently overtaken my life… I don’t think this is a bad thing, really.

  • My sister said she ‘fell off the boat’ and I collapsed into giggles
  • My father and I were in a boat and it was fantastic
  • I was recently boat-hopping between BC Ferries and the SeaBus
  • Work transitions have been compared to rocky boats and seeking safe harbour
  • My team members have been separated into different lifeboats, and have been castaway to small islands as the ship weathers the storm a few kilometers off-shore
  • My network/communication often slips past ‘like ships in the night’
  • Shared experience says we are ‘in the same boat’

That’s about it!

–Sam

Not for me.

I wrote myself an unavoidable note today…

ATTN: SAMANTHA

COFFEE MAKES YOU FEEL AWFUL. 

DO NOT CONSUME UNDER ANY CIRCUMSTANCES.

Followed by a list of alternative beverage choices.

I don’t know what it is, or why, but coffee and I are non-compatible, and that is non-negotiable. The room spins and I feel nauseous and shaky for hours. Doesn’t matter how small the dose or what type of environment, the result is the same.

Today was my last cup of the stuff.

Never again.

 

early thursdays

Notes on the tail-end of the week:

I couldn’t sleep. Thursday was a bit of a blur; rather indistinct. Sorry, Wednesday — it is currently 1:17am on Thursday, hence the post title. But when I went to sleep, though I didn’t stay that way, it was Wednesday. Wednesday was a blur.

Right here, right now, I am restless and I am not going to fight myself to go back to dreamland. This post is for lack of any better alternative and also a chance to literally clear my mind. My mind has been very busy. I have been very busy.

 

I have worked hard to get to this place. I can afford to be generous, and my answer to anything right now is “Go for it! Why not?”

Cashew ice-cream (dairy-free) is awesome. Best part of the week 😀

I’m in a process of renewal. It started with a hair-cut this summer (in August?!) and since then, I’ve been on a roll.

 

Work is on my mind. I am hoping to get through the next 2 weeks in one piece, and fingers crossed that by that time the majority of ducks will be in a row. The current office space is in Vancouver. The BB Admins are cobbling together the necessities this week, finishing up adjustment/training period #1 next week and preparing to roll out the new and improved version the following week. At least, that’s how the picture looks in my head.

Here’s hoping I can stay strong and see the new and improved version to a successful conclusion. After that, I would like to request a 7-day chunk where I can take time away from everything and give it back to myself.

I’d like to be able to recharge enough so that I can stop scheduling my days and resorting to #notenoughtimeintheday. I’d like to give myself enough time to accomplish what needs to be done and then actually have time to be bored! 2 days, 4 days — from past experience — is not enough time. But 7 days, I think would be sufficient 🙂

–Sam

 

Rough seas

Moral of the story: Everything is connected. And sometimes all you can do is wait.

Lately, I’ve been living day by day and week by week, being as flexible as I can while still striving for peace and continuity in the office and out of it.

It has been long! I can hardly wait to be in the new space and for our metaphorical boat to find a safe harbour at last –because it’s getting a little too choppy, the boat is constantly rocking and I’m very, very close to becoming metaphorically seasick. The crew is doing their best, and I am thankful everyday to be able to work with such a great team, but completing this transition will be a huge relief. Posting references to progress in this regard has also been a huge relief, and I plan to continue to do so.

If I died tomorrow and some things didn’t get done before then, I would be upset. On the other hand, if I died tomorrow and some other things didn’t get done before then, I would not be upset at all.

This is how my priorities are being structured at the moment.

If I don’t have enough tea and enough sleep before my death day, I will be very upset. Everything else will be just fine, I’m sure.

–Sam