Moral of the story: Everything is connected. And sometimes all you can do is wait.
Lately, I’ve been living day by day and week by week, being as flexible as I can while still striving for peace and continuity in the office and out of it.
It has been long! I can hardly wait to be in the new space and for our metaphorical boat to find a safe harbour at last –because it’s getting a little too choppy, the boat is constantly rocking and I’m very, very close to becoming metaphorically seasick. The crew is doing their best, and I am thankful everyday to be able to work with such a great team, but completing this transition will be a huge relief. Posting references to progress in this regard has also been a huge relief, and I plan to continue to do so.
If I died tomorrow and some things didn’t get done before then, I would be upset. On the other hand, if I died tomorrow and some other things didn’t get done before then, I would not be upset at all.
This is how my priorities are being structured at the moment.
If I don’t have enough tea and enough sleep before my death day, I will be very upset. Everything else will be just fine, I’m sure.
Today was crappy. I woke up at 5am and couldn’t get back to sleep. I went to work but then left early, because I couldn’t shake the feeling of ‘I feel awful’.
I hurt. Being human hurts. But somehow, saying the word hurt actually helps.
I’m never sure exactly how personal to get on this blog, however, right now I honestly don’t care a fig– all I want is a hot shower and a big cup of tea.
Draw lines in the sand
Hope the ocean pulls away
And doesn’t run forward
Sink down into the floor
Zip to and fro
Re-establish those comfortable nooks
And intimate gatherings
Bookshelves crafted by caring hands
Are messages of love
To settle and sleep
Today is that day
For inspired explorations
Thoughts from today on how I got here and where I’m going.
Friends, I worked really hard to follow the prompts for an extended period of time from August 5 to Sept 18 to give myself a bit of a challenge and look at things through a slightly different lens — so if you get the chance to explore and read some of the resulting posts, that would be super cool!
2017 at the office has been intense. Non-stop activity. Incredible support, superb team work, plenty of problem-solving and several lifetimes worth of transitions. My excitement maybe doesn’t translate directly on to the page, but I am so thrilled, and feel so amazingly privileged to work and grow with a phenomenal team of people and contribute to the betterment of society and mental health. I’m gonna cry happy tears (really, this could apply to Life In General, but in regard to this paragraph, I’m speaking of Work in particular). It’s still in progress, but I can see the light at the end of the tunnel and it is a beautiful thing. I have no words left.
My space looks like a tornado blew through. A small tornado. That’s what I like about having less stuff– it makes less mess. I don’t know if that classifies as laziness, creativeness, problem-solving, or lack of attachment to extras or all of the above. It works for me though!
I only just realized this, but quality time is such a casual reference to something that is so utterly essential to how I interact with the world and the people in it. And it has been such a joy.
Yikes! I am so freakin’ tired. I’d dearly love some pizza and a friend to chatter with and then a good solid 14hrs or so of sleep. And some heat. It is actually cold in here, I have goosebumps, flesh I never thought I’d see again after this summer that has literally seen the province on fire.
I need a time out, a time to regroup, and I need to make dinner.
That’s about it,
via Daily Prompt: Glorious
To be able to filter out the noise and focus on what speaks to you, that is the best feeling. Glorious to me is a feeling, more than a word or definition. And right now I can’t stop smiling.
Good night, friends!
via Daily Prompt: Sting
A random bit of word play to depart from the obvious go-to of bee-stings and hobbit swords 🙂
via Daily Prompt: Recreate
Summer is fading but the warmth has not deserted. I love that feeling of warmth and love from the universe. I’ve just switched from bare arms to my bear blanket 🙂
Bring on the fuzzy socks!
via Daily Prompt: Flavorful
It was a really great 2 days. Mom and I went exploring in New West, and had lunch on a superb patio steps away from the Fraser when the sun was shining and the flavor was mouthwatering.
I will be back! 🙂
via Daily Prompt: Thorny
The world is full of touchy subjects these days. Maybe it’s not surprising that people hardly talk anymore. If you had to talk, you’d have to make time, you’d have to make space and you’d have to consider carefully your audience and your argument — more so perhaps than if you were to just cobble together a few dozen characters and emojis and hit send or snap a snippet of a recording that probably will have less impact and be remembered for only a fraction of the time it took to snap in the first place.
Let’s talk about it sometime: Sex/Gender, Culture, Suicide, Mental Health, Disability, Music, Dogs, Relationships, Food, Fitness, Veganism, Money, Faith, Work, Play, The World in General…. Shall I go on? I’ve plenty of ideas, lots of food for thought, but man, time is tight and partners in crime hard to find.
Times like these inspired the section in my ink and paper journal titled ‘Why the World Needs to go to Therapy’ 🙂