Monthly Archives: April 2017

Do what you love…

I rocked today. I have just a warm, solid sense of well-being. I’m so hungry and at the same time, I just want to close my eyes and fall into soft sleep on my back and watch the ceiling fade out to black. I want to read something amazing, dance like nobody’s watching and sing to my heart’s content…

Listening to Ed Sheeran’s Shape of You and realizing this was the song we danced to a while back when it happened to be there was just a handful of us, all women, in the studio by ourselves on a rainy Saturday for All Bodies Dance Project. And it was such a great moment. We all disappeared into this other world with each other, just moving to the music and completely at ease.

The weekend was a success. Slept in, cleaned up, did laundry, had a blast tucked away doing my own thing! If you have known me for anytime at all, well there’s no need to explain what that looks like, and if you’re new, well then the design and contents or concept of my ‘happy place’ is pretty much incapsulated in this here post 🙂

What have you been up to? Let me know in the comments below.

–Sam

counting…

An hour ago I spent 20 minutes freaking out about all the key points ping-ponging around my head, but now I feel fine, if a bit exhausted by thinking about all I’ve done and yet to do. I’m surprised I’m still talking. Everything has kicked into high gear and though I’m feeling capable and loved, it’s still a lot.

My brain has rearranged the order of the days of the week this week. It has been painful, thinking Tuesday is Thursday and Monday is Sunday and Wednesday is just kicking around to stir up more trouble.

Easter: I went home for the first time this year. Turkey was yummy. Pumpkin pie was better, and it was nice to enjoy a plate of nachos without feeling like a murderer — sorry, Rube.

Spring is almost sprung and I’m happy to be growing still, and growing strong. Some follow up is required but I’m hoping it will all work out. I’ve no one to ramble to, so the page is it.

I’m continuing to find the pieces that work. I’m becoming a part of the fabric of my own life which is kinda cool. I’ve a place to belong to, here and now and it means the world to me.

Only a fraction of what happens IRL ends up on this blog. IRL, I have pages full of notes and lists, reminders and random thought trains. Taking into account the recently surge in benevolent chaos, I’m now on a mission to find myself a good old-fashioned calendar, a new notebook and a pen that actually works– in addition to dance and laundry and groceries, and tea and cello/fiddle/chill if I can manage it.

Off to count sheep! 🙂

–Sam

Miles to the road

Me talking myself down into downtime sorely needed with quiet celebrations and finding new ways to explore growing pains 🙂 Best I can do tonight. Bye!

Like no one is watching…
Today is not yesterday nor tomorrow
You can make it happen
, subtract external forces
Not past 20 minutes there lies everything
The world is full
of fire and metaphor
Shed those heavy expectations, friend
Don’t forget to breathe

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To far distant lands, right here.

I love magic. I write and dance, play cello and fiddle, sing, watch movies, read and eat good food and try and keep my life and house in some sort of semblance of order, and that is enough to keep the magic alive for me. I love to connect with people, places, processes on a deeper level. I’ve managed it today with pumpkin pie and Joni Mitchell and it being a holiday Monday for me; being home and clean and quiet and having nothing to do this afternoon. It’s the best feeling in the world.

 

Films:

I watched the film The Lighthouse of the Orcas just now and it was beautifully done. In other film news… Fantastic Beasts was like being welcomed back into a house full of dear friends, First Footprints about the very first humans to reach Australia totally blew me away, and First Comes Love was a unique family portrait across generations. Harry Potter and the Chamber of Secrets made me cheer and laugh out loud for what seemed like the first time in a long time. And The Karate Kid (1984) was once again superb 🙂

 

Other:

There is so much on my mind. I am so happy to be right here. I don’t want the magic to disappear. I feel a bit jumbled and to be honest that’s probably got a lot to do with my brain being hijacked by hormones — but enough of that. I have to decide what’s for dinner, and check my emails in case, god forbid, someone actually sent me anything of unusual importance. Just knock. Seriously. I’ll invite you in for tea and pumpkin pie and whatever’s for dinner.

Over and out.

–Sam

“Celebrity is as celebrity does.”

Saw the VSO perform HP#2 on the weekend, which was just Amazing! Peskipiksi Pesternomi! And numerous other quotes have been running through my head all day.

Got to visit with Forrest on Monday which made me feel all warm and fuzzy, and had dinner out (Vietnamese) which was absolutely delicious and as a bonus, got to cross another of the ‘hood’s establishments off my (non-existent) list! During my life time I hope to be able to visit all the places up and down this hill 🙂

New soup and bread for dinner, with The Laughing Cow (is it just me, or do they all taste rather similar?). Getting extreme enjoyment out of my down time this evening, and to say I’m looking forward to the weekend would be a major understatement.

That’s all!

–Sam

“Hello, it’s me…”

*I am thrilled.

I can’t believe it’s after 5pm already! Work was surprisingly not freakishly busy which was a relief. Might get to visit with bro tonight, we shall see…

really like coconut yogurt!

I also really like my new wardrobe inspirations. Granted, it’s not a huge leap –probably not going to see me coming down the runway anytime soon… But dog hair, jeans and fleece, though I still love and respect their versatility tremendously, don’t have quite the monopoly they used to 😛 And it’s another way in which I feel I now have the freedom to express myself.

I honestly felt like I could never wear red growing up, because it would be wrong somehow to wear that colour when it so obviously belonged to my sister, Ruby. I also hardly ever wore pink, it seemed like a colour with so many expectations and connotations that I didn’t want to mess with. I now wear both, though white and I still are rather wary of each other!

Maybe that is the best way to put it. Expression. There are so many ways to do it, and I feel like I’ve just been building on that. Not that everything needs to be blatantly obvious or in-your-face or even logical, but I think everyone should be able to at some point see a connection with some part of themselves in all that they do — in a good way. And I can, and that makes me happy!

Thinking of a title for this post I thought of Adele’s Hello. Went to look it up again on Youtube and ended up watching this ad for Mercedes-Benz, in French, with bagpipes and the Loch Ness Monster (here). I don’t know whether to be disturbed or amused that my apparent Youtube habits of listening to French composer, Yann Teirsen and also fun celtic tunes and various Scots Gaelic videos and related content has resulted in my being targeted in this way? LOL.

I seem to walk invisible lines in picking titles for my posts. They are all significant to me. The content is important. I can — and have– looked back years later and known exactly how I felt at the time I wrote a piece. And well, the song just managed to pull up some memories, and now I think I might cry. Happy or sad tears? I’m not sure 🙂

Amazing song, random post, that’s all I got for a Monday evening. Oh, and yet another query about a ‘Pat’ I’ve never met (3 years and counting).

More later,

Sam

Dearest, look up!

Note to self to step out of work mode and into the weekend. Work being that which is constrained often by time, can have stressful elements and in my case, a lot of paper, people, talking on the telephone and information gathering.

That is to say, I want to do away with timelines, stress, paper, people, telephones and information gathering for the next 48hrs. I’ve been feeling harried, and I want to get back to feeling grounded.

I had a decent dinner and sleep, I’m showered and dressed and ready to head to dance, so I’d say I’m doing well so far.

More later. But… FYI… This whole post is actually more for MY information– but it is information you might be interested in, too, and that’s cool 😛

All Bodies Dance Project presents:

DO MAKE SHOW
June 1 and 2 @ 8pm and 2pm matinee on June 2, 2017
Roundhouse Performance Centre
Tickets $10-$25 sliding scale
(no one turned away for lack of funds)

Featuring choreography by:
Carolina Bergonzoni, Naomi Brand, Alana Prochuk, Cheyenne Seary, Rianne Svelnis and the All Bodies Dance ensemble!

More later. Got to go!

–Sam

Some one/thing

I feel the same today as I did yesterday. Yesterday was a good day.

I have been feasting. I love food. I love everything. I feel like a broken record.

I thought yesterday of oil and vinegar. That’s how I feel, like oil and vinegar in a bottle (but inverted) so as to be mellow and rich on the bottom, and just ready to pack a powerful punch of flavour and tartness on top. My feet felt weighed down and my mind was still going at a good clip, thinking of dinner and the day and anything and everything in between. I’m so tired and so invigorated at the same time. Work has been incredibly busy. I’ve been doing a lot. Dance has been challenging.

I just, I can’t explain it. It can’t be got. And I don’t really want anything to change, honestly. I think this is who I am, who I want to be. Myself in every sense of the word. I feel whole 🙂

–Sam

6:58

Gotta remember to take a breath now and then.

My phone is ringing and it is extremely irritating. It rained today and I didn’t have a hat — my head is still wet. I want to go through my wardrobe yet again. I want popcorn and a movie. And a hug.

I’m looking forward to easter and hoping to be Coastal for those few days. I like it when I’m sitting down and my feet can actually touch the floor.

The rain is back. The sun was nice, I’m sure it will return eventually.

Big thanks go to Aunty Jill for the nuts and chocolate — absolutely delicious! And of course to Grandma for a scrumptious meal with all the fixings on Sunday 🙂

TTFN,

Sam