Monthly Archives: March 2017

Trop de…Beurk!

I’m super happy the weekend has begun!

However I’m kinda pissed that I stink still of a horrible mixture of overpowering scents that was the office today. My throat actually hurts and I feel a tad nauseous. I understand not everyone may be able to shower as needed — and maybe to you, you smell amazing. I am happy for you. But there are limits! No need to attempt to alter the atmospheric composition any further. O2 suits me fine 🙂

I’m gonna go have tea.

–Sam

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Everything

Hey,

So I’ve been busy. Really busy.

I’ve had so many referrals and inquiries come in that numerous times I’ve been unable to find the top of my desk under all the layers and piles of paper. I haven’t stopped calling people and the phone hasn’t stopped ringing. Mail is incoming and outgoing at a truly ridiculous rate, inventory is in a period of transition, as is the office in general. The flow of people has been constant and large.

I attended my first Mental Health Breakfast event at the HOpe Centre last Friday. It was fun! Syntyche was presenting and I manned the table, distributing brochures, videos and information on Bounce Back to anyone interested to know more. If you are, you can visit bouncebackbc.ca or call me! 😀 I’ve heard the radio ads a few times now, and it always makes me smile to think that I am part of the team that makes it possible for people to know about and access such a great resource, and not be afraid to talk about mental health or ask for help if they are struggling.

I’ve realized I’m not the kind of person that thrives on oodles of anything — well, except maybe popcorn and quality film… And I also don’t have a lot of people — really any, to grab and haul off on an adventure. The solution: DIY! More of it. Because I can, because I want to, because being me rocks 😛

I took myself out to lunch today and it was fantastic. I had coffee — let me clarify, I conversed but did not consume, my friend had enough coffee for two — with a friend. I watched Outlander again, parts en Francais, rolling on the bed, laughing. I’ve caught up on groceries, dishes and laundry, played fiddle and cello and cranked my favourite playlists. I helped choreograph a pint-sized piece which turned out really cool, and honestly just about made me cry. I miss those creative-collaborative light-bulb moments — there were a lot of them back when I had near-constant canine companionship, when it would be like: Does this work? And then, Yes! Good job! Yes! You rock! We rock! Let’s do it again. I don’t have a dog with me at the moment, and I think that’s a good thing? I do have a new house guest, a Mr. Plant. But he is not very happy at the moment. If the evidence to hand ever saw the inside of a courthouse, I’m fairly sure I’d be convicted of manslaughter, but there’s still a few sprigs left and I’m hoping he will recover.

Over the weekend, I spent a good 2 hours in an absolutely divine semi-conscious state listening to tunes with headphones, and have started reading The Count of Monte Cristo. I watched an amazing series on the first humans ever to reach Australia and to balance it out 17 Again –again, which I really enjoyed 🙂

I came home today and did some self-care and space-care. Ate an Easter cookie and multiple glasses of almond milk, plus an orange, which was all super delicious. As an aside, I am working my way through the bakery downstairs… These are my favourites (which I suppose I could add to later), as I figure the not-so-favourites aren’t worth mentioning.

Fruit Tarts -5/5
Copenhagens -5/5
Brownies -6/5
Bread -5/5
Muffins -5/5
Sugar/Easter/Ginger/Shortbread cookies 5/5
Rhubarb/Apple pie 4/5 *would be best a la mode

I’ve rediscovered how versatile cinnamon is! I swear I’ve had it in my breakfast, lunch, dinner and several snacks over the past few weeks. Cherry tomatoes, lentils, limes and mushrooms and oranges, to name a few, have all been cycling rapidly through my kitchen a lot lately. And tea is the best.

There’s really nothing I don’t love, or at least like about everything that I do in a day. People might balk at laundry or dishes or cleaning house, or being alone and yeah, there are times when you just don’t want to do it. But it’s really not that horrible. I’ve been asking myself, honestly, realistically, what’s the worst that could happen? And the answers these days don’t scare me nearly as much as they used to. I’m here. I’m doing what I do. I have a say in what happens, I can take in the experience. I am free to explore and enjoy, and I do!

I’m laughing reading this. This is how my brain works on autopilot. I haven’t edited or thought about it at all. I’ve just kept writing. The other thing I’ve recently embraced is that I can’t do any of the following in a magically straight-line: writing, walking, scissors/knife wielding, shopping… Some of my friends and family read this blog, I know, because if something I post catches their interest, they might ask me for background on it, but are often a bit hazy on the details, ‘You know, that post you made the other day?’ — because entries are organized first by date, I think people tend to assume that everything here has happened in chronological order. Sorry! 🙂 I often will post recollections of things that happened days, weeks, months or years past, right next to something that has just happened. There may be composite scenarios or characters. For the most part, this blog and the content of individual posts is in fact non-linear and has no rules. Just a heads up on that!

Does anyone know when it gets dark these days? I feel like I’m still primed to get sleepy at around 5pm. But I think the sun’s up for longer than that now. I saw it today (the sun) it was wonderful. In terms of records, I have it on good authority that March 2017 had the highest number of Bounce Back referrals as well as the most rainfall EVER, in recorded history. Seriously! I hope April will bring more sunny days and mentally healthy, happy humans– I’d rather not literally drown in paperwork 🙂

–Sam

Other.

I don’t know what it is about today. It’s just different. I’m feeling exceptionally methodical, pretty calm, pretty comfy. I felt kind of removed from work today — like I could have handed it all over to AI and nobody would have minded, and yet still very valued and supported and good.

I came home, put on a sweater and made popcorn on a whim, blogged, popped in to Facebook, had a strong desire to read some trashy fiction just to laugh outrageously at various hideous typos and other flaws.

And now, I still have no idea what I want for dinner, and am once again craving tea and toast.

What’s new with you? 🙂

–Sam

Love you lots!

A big shout out to my friends and family for helping me feel exceptionally warm and fuzzy the past 7 days! Love you lots.

In the past week:

  • Went for sushi with Forrest and Ben
  • Dinner, visit and Beauty & the Beast with Rube and Jade
  • The definition of multi-tasking – whether I was successful at it, depends who you ask
  • Promo op for BB and Breakfast!
  • Fun on transit with friends — and drivers who have a wonderful sense of humour
  • Movies and day about town with Rube (Fantastic Beasts! ❤ )
  • Waffles and new Stix gear with Forrest 🙂
  • Dance x2 – cool choreography, and also some crying!!!
  • A Sunday well spent

Summed up

In three words I can sum up everything I’ve learned about life: it goes on.
― Robert Frost

The hour is late and I have an early start tomorrow. Tomorrow will be full of happiness in the form of sister-hugs, breakfast, movies and hopefully, restfulness. I’ve been doing what feels good and it seems to be working 🙂 I’ve been reading James Herriot stories and Thinking Like a Mountain. I’ve been keeping cozy and busy and am finding a place for myself in the world, which is good!

This round of prompts is finished and I’m now back to posting without prompting. Take a look back at the past 3 weeks, if you get a chance and don’t be afraid to leave a comment or two! I intend to do so myself, as the past bit has been quite a blur and it’s nice to look back and find out where the time, and my mind, went 😀

I love that the space here is not static, full of artistry and compassion, new ideas and knowledge, and cordial conversations.

Thanks for stopping by,

–Sam

Full of the Dickens

via Daily Prompt: Label

Whenever I’m feeling especially distracted, I always recall this quote from Charles Dickens’ A Christmas Carol, laugh and think I know exactly how Scrooge must have felt…

“I don’t know anything. I never did know anything…. I must stand on my head.” And I often mutter, “I must have a label… label label label label label!” when searching for a misplaced something.

So much goodness packed into just a few minutes! 🙂 I highly recommend watching the film in its entirety –and in black and white, if you haven’t yet had the opportunity.

–Sam

Honesty’s the best policy

via Daily Prompt: Conquer

I don’t know about you, but it’s been organized chaos here.

The days have been full, as has my head. I really am happy to just achieve the little things in life. I do my conquering in the laundry room on weekends, getting dinner done is always a happy moment and playing music or eating chocolate makes me feel all warm and fuzzy.

I have one more day left of this self-imposed month long challenge and honestly, I’m pretty excited to be adding the thing to my list of items vanquished!

Everything, pretty much

via Daily Prompt: Controversy

Seems to me that everything is wrapped in controversy these days. One exception I can think of is the weather. Nobody looks at the sky and says, “You’re raining. But, you’re doing it wrong. Just hear me out and I’ll tell you how it should be done.”

When I was growing up and first heard about acid rain, I didn’t want to go outside. I thought I’d get burned and slowly fizz away into nothingness after weathering the weather year after year. I thought the same about metal and rust– that you couldn’t let anything metallic get too wet, otherwise it would turn to rust-dust in a matter of moments — a belief that precipitated my brother’s first major road-rash incident.

It was pouring rain. We were riding home on our bikes, coming down the last hill a good deal faster than really necessary. And all I could think was that we needed to go faster or we’d be left without bikes. Forrest believed me. He pedalled like a mad-man, lost control and slid along the road for what seemed like forever, tearing skin, grabbing gravel and getting a healthy coating of mud on top, like icing on a cake.

I don’t remember how long it took for him to recover. I still feel terrible about it. I remember him laid out on the couch covered in bandages made out of old socks, and medical dressings, courtesy of our neighbours who are both trained ER Nurses. I felt then, as I still do now, that we are so incredibly lucky to have them: skilled, compassionate, wonderful people who are willing and able to offer support and care to us and others in times of crisis.

Here’s to my brother, for his good humour, humility and quiet strength, Batman and Robin, and the true everyday heroes who are dedicated to making the world a better place, one person, one day, at a time 🙂 ❤

 

Patrick, Potter & Felix

via Daily Prompt: Luck

Happy St. Patrick’s Day — apparently, it is a public holiday in Newfoundlandl. Lucky them! I don’t have a lot of green in my wardrobe, nor did I play any fiddle. I played cello yesterday though!

And, I really would love to have a Harry Potter marathon and re-watch all the movies and then re-read all the books… Among other things, this prompt made me think of this scene from The Halfblood Prince (courtesy of IMDB):

[Harry gulps down the Felix Felicis]

Hermione: How do you feel?

Harry: Excellent… really excellent!

Hermione: Remember, Slughorn usually eats early, takes a walk, and then returns to his office.

Harry: Right. I’m going down to Hagrid’s.

Hermione: What? No! Harry, you’ve got to go speak to Slughorn! We have a plan.

Harry: I know, but I’ve got a really good feeling about Hagrid’s. I feel like it’s the place to be tonight. Do you know what I mean?

Hermione & Ron: No.

 

Glaciers etc.

via Daily Prompt: Massive

Massive to me is a word that brings to mind glaciers and mountains, forests, rivers, bears, elephants, whales and sea creatures, wildebeast and earthquakes. Awe-inspiring, space-taking, view-filling examples of the beauty and power and ruthlessness that is a part of the natural world.

When I take my mind in the other direction and draw examples from what humans have created, I see farms and hunger, war, want and just general destruction. So now I really don’t know if I should be happy or sad…, or if I’m happy or sad.

That was an interesting exercise!

I hear Planet Earth II is out! If you haven’t seen the first one, you don’t know what you’re missing. It is a truly spectacular series and I can’t wait to see the second instalment 🙂

TTFN,

Sam