Monthly Archives: July 2014

Million Dollar Question

“How do you do it?”

That’s what I want to know.

How do you: live your life, fall in love, play dumb, help people, hurt people, run 1000 meters, climb a mountain, play a tune, make a friend, let loose, define success, see progress…

“How” leads to the who, what, where, when, and why.

I want to know, “How do you do it?”

Whatever it is, whoever you are.

Dead in the Water

I…I don’t know what to say.

Honesty and common sense? A little bit of fun in the sun?

That’s not allowed.

I spend an hour in the phone queue hoping against hope that I won’t have to deal with any more lunacy and what do I get? Lunacy.

Praying I can sort it out tomorrow without going completely insane.

Sorry I couldn’t keep it together. But be thankful I spared you the details.

Brilliance (part 2)

I am learning who I am, what is important to me, what I am capable of, where my passion lies and what I am willing to do to in order to achieve my goals.

Go me! 😀

This is a bit of a melding of my last few posts Brilliance (part 1) and In Focus.

But…

You know when you read a word in a book, and you don’t really know what it is, what it means or how to say it, but your brain takes what you see, and the history of what you have learned, and forms an approximation of what it might be, mean or sound like?

And from that point forward, the word becomes what you understand it to be, and not what it actually is…

I feel like that word. Like, often I am only a representation of what I understand myself to be, of what I understand myself to be to others, and not who I truly am at my core.
But I am peeling back the layers 🙂

 

In Focus

Wow! Yep! Understood.

At the risk of sounding incredibly ridiculous, I have to say that I believe I have found enlightenment.

My handy dandy little dictionary states that to enlighten is to “give (someone) greater knowledge and understanding about a subject or situation.”

And that about sums it up.

You know when you read a word in a book, and you don’t really know what it is, what it means or how to say it, but your brain takes what you see, and the history of what you have learned, and forms an approximation of what it might be, mean or sound like?

And from that point forward, the word becomes what you understand it to be, and not what it actually is…

For example, the character named Severus Snape. Don’t ask me why, but my brain magicked another “R” in after the first “E”- and for ages, in my head Sever-us was instead Server-us. Until finally I realized that there were too many “R’s” 🙂

The same process has been occurring over the past few years with my view of the world, and the processes and people in it, myself included.

Friendship, bullying, fear, triumph, maturity, intelligence, respect, creativity, strength, patience, accountability, success… All of these I thought I understood, or at least recognized.

And yet new evidence, and new circumstances have been brought to light, where I question it all, question the faces and the facts that are presented to the world, which influence our choices and shape our realities, whether they be real or imagined.

 

 

 

Ten Cent Zombies

Isn’t it freaky how quickly we human beings can transition from normal to abnormal and back again?

How quickly habits can form and come undone. For example, I can spend a week as a zombie, and whether I enjoy it or not, it becomes normal; the late nights, the fast food, the stress.

But once the door opens and I decide to return to the land of the living, and get back on track, all of the more sensible behaviours and routines come back into play and I function just as easily in this “new normal” as I did in the old one.

Know your priorities. Learn all that you can. Life really can turn on a dime.

 

Around the World

Now I have not read the book “Around the World in 80 Days”. But this iconic title, (which I do hope to read someday) was the inspiration behind the following content.

Things have been busy, on all fronts.

Here’s the short version: I worked, drank tea, planned, travelled, paddled, laughed with friends and family, ate junk food. All you need to do to complete the picture is insert this one word after each statement: ALOT! 🙂

The last week of June, everything literally came together.

My sister graduated highschool. My brother returned from 3 weeks racing around the European continent. And I had a very intense 80 hour experience where I felt like I was everywhere doing everything at once.

There was work and dogs; pizza, burgers, ice cream, chocolate and popcorn; friends and family; caps, gowns, honors and awards; buses, ferries, planes, trains and automobiles; dragon boats and sunshine. It was fun. It was long. And at the end of it all, man was I tired!

Here’s a final shout out to my awesome siblings, I am so proud of you guys!!!! 😀

And to all my other friends and family, you are amazing.

 

Bursting

My head hurts. And my heart pounds.

I am focused. But I am frozen. Waiting, suspended, poised on the edge. Everything has slowed down. Everything is fuzzy. And I want more than anything for it to be as quick and clear as a lightning strike.

I am the tree with many branches, supple fibers and strong roots. The wind is blowing, the rain falling and the thunder rolling. I reach out, and up, and wait for the lightning to strike. For the electric connection, and the flames to catch.

There is so much I want to do, and know and share. I have a vision, and I know the potential. I know that it is possible.

Collaboration is required. So is organization.
Action, decisive and effective, needs to be taken.

And when progress is sluggish and objectives are vague, I struggle.

My head hurts. And my heart pounds.